I'm really struggling mentally at the moment. Was diagnosed with PND last year and it's been a roller-coaster. I've been on sertraline for a while now and it's made a massive difference until recently.
Sleep (or lack of!) is a major trigger for me. I'm constantly on the go and still up through the night with my 1 year old as well as working and trying to keep on top of the house.
Recently my thoughts have been really strange. I've found myself fantasising about being in an accident, breaking a leg or even getting covid and having to be in hospital for a few days just so I can rest and get away from everyone 
I'm so embarrassed to admit this. My period is late and I've even been looking up having an abortion to see if it would be in hospital 
I really don't think I'm feeling right at the moment. Nothing makes sense.