I hate work so much and I’m having suicidal thoughts

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The whole getting up stupidly early every morning, feeling like a zombie whilst at work, coming home and trying to cram housework, cooking etc every evening and then doing it all again the next day…how do other people do it? Is this what life is meant to be like?

Before anyone suggests..I have tried tons of different jobs in different areas and I’ve hated every single one- I even failed part of my degree because I didn’t turn up for most of the placement I was meant to do because I hated it so much. I have no passions in life so what am I supposed to do? I need money so there is no way out, is there?

I seriously think about crashing my car sometimes so I won’t have to work any more. I’m at my wits end.

Hey, tell me more. Have a good vent.

You don’t have to feel this way OP, please reach out for help from your GP if you haven’t already.

Thanks but venting doesn’t change my situation. I don’t even know why I posted- maybe wondering if anyone has any helpful suggestions before I decide what to do.

Life is absolutely frazzling* at times. What sort of age are you? (Wondering how recent uni was?)

Do you live alone?

What work do you do?
Full time, I presume, whatever it is?

I’m 35 and did my degree when I was 18- never used it though and never wanted to.

Full time and I live with my husband who is very understanding, but he’s also one of these lucky people who actually enjoys his job and gets on easily with people so I’m full of envy for him in that respect.

Not to be patronising but may I ask are you on antidepressants?

Probably a stupid question but do you really need your income or could you just live on his? I think it can be very hard on women to have to do everything; work and nearly all the home care.

No. I’ve had counselling in the past due to depression and anxiety in my teens which never worked and the last time I tried to speak to my gp about it (years ago) I was accused of just wanting a sick note. I also don’t like the way gp’s in general look and speak to me so I would never seek professional help.

Suggestions: get on antidepressants, reduce your hours/take a sabbatical/go to your GP and get a sick note as you are really suffering, call the Samaritans, consider counselling (I know often easier said than done).

I wonder if your husband or anyone else knows how bad things have got?

Also not doing cooking and cleaning, let your husband take up the slack as he likes his job.

Thinking about the things that bring you joy and how you can get more of it in your life.

Can you go part time?
Could you change jobs?

Thank you for your responses. I can’t give up work all together unfortunately but I’ll think about your other suggestions.

It’s so shitty that you were made to feel that way. It’s not okay.

I work with GPs every day, and they can be, er, a strange bunch But they’re all different, and you are perfectly entitled to start with “The last time I tried to do this I was not at all happy with the way I was treated”. That’ll stop them in their tracks! Honest, polite but firm.

Please give it some thought. Maybe a telephone consultation would suit you better initially? Or would you be able to see anyone privately?

Also you could ask the receptionist if they can book you in with their most understanding doctor. They’ll know who it is. Not a guarantee but worth a go.