My son attempted suicide last May. He had therapy since, was seen by the urgent mental health team and he is on medication. There was NO sign prior that he was feeling that way.
Since then I've dealt with severe PTSD for which I am waiting on therapy.
Just 2 days ago he told me he's feeling depressed and that he doesn't think the meds are working anymore. This has scared me shitless. My son just isn't happy. He's just not content with his life.
Because of the weekend/bank holiday I've not been able to speak to the doctors but I'm going to get an appointment for him tomorrow .... I am once again on tenterhooks that he's going to attempt suicide for a second time.
This evening he got some news that a girl he was seeing has gone back to her birth place (Thailand) and she didn't even tell him. He's broken. He doesn't do well with ANY stress (he's on the spectrum). She was the only thing making him 'happier'.....
I am having real issues with the idea that my son could try over. I myself am feeling suicidal because I'd rather be gone than have to experience the loss of my child. I would never tell him how I feel as people who are suicidal don't necessarily think of the repercussions of their actions as they're so low they just want peace from the hell.
I just don't know what more I can do to prevent my son from harming himself.... I talk to him but I know 100% he'd never he honest with me...
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