Im so stupid and incompetent

[wombatsandadhd]

I just feel so stupid and incompetent at the moment though. I say at the moment but I’ve always felt like that. I don’t even try hard anymore as I know I just can’t do anything. I so badly want to do things but when it comes down to it, I just cannot focus on it. Im trying to do a course at the moment but I can’t even bring myself to open the page as Im not able to focus on the content. The only way I’ve found my self able to focus is by listening and doing something else and even then I zone out and miss bits. I don’t know why I thought i could do the course, I’m really interested in the topic I just need to give myself a shake. But even then I won’t be able to do it properly.

All I’m doing at the moment and all I’ve been doing for years is just watching telly sort of and aimlessly browsing the internet on and off. I can just about cope with a 20 minute telly show, but I really wanted to watch some Christmas films but they’re too long and get too distracted. I can’t even sit still for more than 10 minutes, I keep getting up and wandering around.

I’m pretty sure I have adhd. I’m just really struggling at the moment and I don’t know what to do. I need to speak to my psychiatrist luckily I have an appointment on the 5th, but it feels like so far away.

I’m not even sure what I’m asking for, I’m just really struggling and not with my mood for once.

I can really relate to your post, I struggle with the same things, there are days when I make lists of things i want to do, but the majority of the time I find that nothing gets done because I can't focus on anything for any length of time. I recently discovered that I have ADHD and have an official diagnosis for it now which has helped. Is there any way you could speak to your psychiatrist about thinking you have ADHD? It can always seem like a long time when waiting for an appointment, but is there anything kind you can do for yourself in the meantime? Even if it's just spending a few minutes reading a book or listening to a podcast

Thanks. I’m just so convinced I have adhd, maybe I don’t though, maybe I’m just incompetent. I dunno. I’m definitely asking my psych on Wednesday, and if he still refuses I’m asking for a second opinion. I will get assessed, I need to do it for my own mental well being.