Just can't be bothered with Christmas this year

[MrsSnape]

My family have had a crap year, to start it off my uncle died in agony from a brain tumour, this happened in February.

Then my grandmother was flooded during the summer floods and was made homeless, it happened so close to the death of my uncle that we honestly didnt think she'd cope.

I joined a scheme designed to help lone parents back into work and was routinly taken the piss out of, sent on work placements where there was nothing for me to do, sent places where I just got in peoples way and was promised a job that I never had a cat in hells chance of really getting. I left the scheme feeling 100 times less confident about finding work than I had when I started.

I went abroad on holiday for the first time with the kids and ended up having a blazing row with my partner, in front of the kids which completely wrecked it. We spent the last 2 days of it in silence.

Said relationship then ended when we got back. It was a shit relationship anyway so its good in one way but its left we feeling lonely.

I've tried desperately to find work since the holiday to no avail.

My son has suspected ADHD and this year his behaviour has become sometimes unbearable.

The house is a shit hole but I cant move until I find work...and I cant find work.

I'm fat. I've gone up a dress size and now have no clothes that fit me properly and no money to buy any with.

So that was my year...I know others have had worse ones but I just feel like shit. I cant be bothered at all with christmas and the mere mention of it makes me feel sick. Today I have to wrap presents and write cards but I just dont want to.

I just want the year to end but I know I have to pretend to be happy and upbeat for the kids at this time of year but I'm finding it a real struggle.

What an awful year Poor you
Are you in the place that was really badly flooded too?

I live up North in city on coast that was badly flooded.If its the same place and you want to meet up for a coffee sometime,I would be more than happy to.(am not mad axe weilding psycho,honest)

Have a sn child too.It can be hard enough without all the other crap you've been through.

FWIW Christmas very low key here too.Has also been a year I do not wish to celebrate,but you,ve had more than your share of bad luck by sounds of it.Hoping that 2008 is a better one for you.xxxx

Thanks for your message I'm in Hull, not sure if its the same place you mean?

It just gets to you when you look around and everyone is happy and excited and you feel like curling up in bed and sleeping until new years day

Me too.If you go on Mumsnet local at all,and you ever feel like a coffee the offer stands.Post on the local bit_

Am in North of city.

Could always meet somewhere central.

Have 2 dcs 4 and 2

I know the feeling.DP has been in hossy for last few months and dds SN are becoming more noticeable pretty crappy year all round)

Still,next years gotta be better,eh

Best wishes,Wrinkly.

Sounds v crap. Poor you. Hope you have some lovely time with the kids.

Thanks Toots

Wrinklytum, I'm in north too! I'll post in local a bit later on and we could maybe arrange something? I'm going to have to make a start on those presents now but will definately post later on

I'll look out for it.Will probably not be able to reply until tonight as visiting dp later and have to sort dcs out tonight etc.

Must go now as need to sort dd out,she has raided Advent calendar and is covered in chocolate.