Hello,
So I’ve had this for years but I seem to go in to these really weird headspaces where I feel quite down and my anxiety spirals. Without a doubt the thing that always affects me is my relationships with friends. I start to feel really lonely and like no one cares and I get really negative about it all - despite the fact I could have five unanswered messages sitting there. I can’t stop thinking about the people I’ve messaged and who have not replied. It’s like I can’t see the wood through the trees - I also have a habit of focusing in on one thing and really letting it stress me out. I.e I’m pregnant and made a new mum friend, I sent her a really inane screenshot of something I saw that I thought might be of interest with no questions - just a ‘just came across this on Instagram and thought it might be of interest for you, for that thing you’re doing next week!’ it doesn’t need a reply but it was hours ago and she hasn’t replied and in my head I’m just spiralling. Does she not like me? Is she going to think it’s weird I’ve sent her this on Boxing Day? I can’t explain it fully - but my whole mindset changes and I feel awful. Sometimes it lasts a day, other times it can last a week.
It’s like a switch flips & I can’t control my thoughts or think logically even though, now, I try but nothing works. Could it be hormones? I literally go from one day being fine to the next day so down & uncontrollable worrying and stress about something small. Does anyone else have this?