This is a Mental Health section, and there all kinds of sensitive topics/threads in here so I hope I can ask my question here, as this has been bother me for a long time.
I was wrong for saying what I said to my husband, no excuse about it regardless whether my reason was valid or not. But I want to know if my husband actions was manipulative.
I yelled at him that I hate him, I resent him, that I want him dead (deep down I totally didn't mean what I said). He asked me if I really mean it when it when I said I want him dead. I answered firmly Yes, I mean it, I really want him dead.
We were in the kitchen when this happened, he went grabbed a sharp pointy chef knife, and pressed the pointy chef knife hard against his stomach (the sharp pointy of the knife leave a mark) he said: 'what already happen already happened, if by him dead will help calm my resentment and hatred against him, he willing to die for me'.
He put my hand on the knife and said push it as hard as I can, he said: 'he promise he won't call for the ambulance, and he will just lay there let himself bleed to death. He said if his wife want him dead, he willingly to die'.
Ofcourse I never wanted him dead, I teared up. I put away the knife. I hugged him and yelled at him that don't ever do that again. I cried. We both cried.
Is he manipulative me? Or is the emotional barrage I put him through to get to the point of him did this?
Thank you.
And Happy Holidays to all!