Anyone Feeling Down on Run Up to Xmas?

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Usually, I love Christmas. Admittedly, it has become more of a challenge over recent years with my DD who has special needs.

But this year, I feel particularly sad. I think poss due to covid worry and things with certain family members scared to go out as terrified of catching covid, my Dad no longer being with us and I’m just exhausted and sick of worrying about various family members! I am so, so tired.
On the other hand, I’m also so grateful for what we have and appreciate the good times. I just have huge underlying sadness.

Been on anti-d’s for around 4 years now.

I could sleep for days!
Last week I hardly slept and then on Friday night, I slept solidly for 13 hours!

Anyone else feeling worse and more anxious around this period?

I'm trying to be happy and cheerful and excited for daughter, but it's exhausting.

I wish I was one of lifes happy people, but it doesn't come naturally.
People with actual depression, I feel for you, this period must be incredibly hard and made harder thanks to the pressures of the media portrayals of the 'Happy family' shite.

Agh! Totally. The underlying anxiety re presents, for the kids and the pressure for it to be wonderful even though it’s really just another Sunday. Wish we had a lovely big funny warm family. But no, the psychotic bollocks from sil playing the well known Xmas game,’ let’s be narcissistic wankers’ dread it.

Me ✋🏻 feel so down and wishing Christmas to be over. Want to hide in bed until the new year but can't because of children. This time of year is so hard mentally not to mention everything else going on. x

Me too. There's not even a lot of pressure on me regarding Christmas - it will just be me, partner and daughter on the day. I've been very depressed for months and I just want this year done.

Totally. Another Christmas day without my parents and siblings, no-one to dilute ex. Everything I've organised in the last couple of weeks has been cancelled. Zero motivation to do anything. ASD DD is going to freak when she hears my modest arrangements for Christmas day have been shelved due to dsis testing positive.

And it's sooooooo grey.

Yep, I'm starting to hate Christmas more each year. It's always about keeping other people happy. DP doesn't want to go to my family and has started saying we shouldn't go due to Covid (there will only be 7 of us, including one sullen teen and my obnoxious brother) but my parents will get upset if we don't go.

I bloody LOVE the 27th when it's all over again for aaages. I'm feeling really down and angry today! to anyone really struggling

I wish Christmas would just go away!

Absolutely, I used to love Christmas.

My ex ruined the first 2 then my sister ruined the last 3 including this years and it hasn't even happened yet. We had a fall out last week and haven't spoken so don't even know if she is coming now.
Haven't bothered buying any food as daughter is being picked up at 2pm so it seems pointless to cook a meal for one.

I miss loving Christmas, it's hard to be happy around my daughter as I just want it over with.