Been Feeling very low about my life lately, we had a rocky start in the working world and no matter how hard I tried I couldn't earn more then I do, I just hit my coping ceiling, my other half was so much cleverer than me and can cope better with stress worked a lot of shifts for years meaning at wknds we didn't see a lot of eachother and he wanted to save up as felt it was a good idea to try and move us to a better area as the plan was at the start to have 2 children, we got married at 28 & moved out of our tiny house into our family size home at 30 but it took just over 4 yrs until I became pregnant, this was hard to take when people my own age were having theirs at 26-28. I'm now 37 and my daughter is 2.5. My birth turned in to a disaster and was in incredible pain for months after and she didn't sleep well at all she woke servers times most nihhts until about 8 months ago. To top it off my mum died 7 wks after she was born as was diagnosed with late stage cancer just before I got pregnant then we had to endure covid when my dd was 6mo and my hubby had a terrible stomach issue on mat leave whic turned out to be colitis, hereditary from his nan and his nephew just got diagnosed. He's just started a flare a few days ago before Xmas! I just feel down about his stomach it's hard to have friends for dinner with this as he can't get involved much and he's also realised being around kids he's not great at, I feel so down, I'm worried to death about his health and how it'll effect life in the future and worry so much now if anything happens to me as our dd is only 2.5! Life's busy got on top of me maybe I need a reality check of some sort it's just hard to see any positives through all this
I don't have a lot of family either since we had our daughter my DH family have just not bothered it's awful it's just not how it was supposed to be!