Hi all.
Just wondered if you had any advice on how to cope this weekend please? I'm experiencing a mental health flare up- depression, anxiety and suicidal feelings (I'm not going to act on it, it's linked to medication). Very stressed as I'm behind on my course and have an exam end of Jan. A good but not super close friend is coming to stay and I feel a bitch but could really do without it. It's far too late now to cancel.
I've been in tears all day, had something personal to deal with that has unearthed a lot of sadness.
This guy is very, very kind but I am pretty sure has much stronger feelings for me, he just hasn't said as much outright, as in asked me out. I feel a bit guilty knowing I can't give him what he wants but I absolutely don't want that with him. This is another layer of stress and guilt.
I think past trauma has been triggered a bit by a slightly weird date situation last night too which has probably brought this on. Nothing bad happened, in fact it was cancelled in the end, but the guy seemed quite odd and insidious then someone started following me home (luckily I was able to stop a taxi). Date guy is blocked now so that's dealt with.
Can anyone help me reframe this as a nice thing? I have good company for the weekend and 6 weeks to catch up and prep for the exam? Just writing this out has helped.