So terrified I can’t function

[Vaginasaurus]

I hope this makes sense. For about 16 years, I have suffered from multiple physical and mental health conditions. I am now in my mid 60s and can hardly get out of bed, except to go to the toilet.

Physically, my diagnosed illnesses include osteoporosis, chronic cough, acid reflux, sarcoidosis (lungs), and much, much more.

I also suffer from anxiety and depression.

I haven’t seen my son for many months as he works a long way from home and he has just come to visit for a few days. Yesterday, I felt very ill with heart palpitations, vomiting, anxiety, coughing and a deep and dark mood. Today I feel the same and cannot cope.

My DS and DH are trying to help, but we don’t know what to do. I feel so grim and wish I could end my life just to get away from all this illness. I would never do this as I would not want to hurt my family.

Can anyone help me?

Hi,sorry to hear this. My mother has health issues as well, quite similar to yours and she is in her 50s. She recently came out of hospital and has been in a dark place since so I can identity. As someone that has experienced this myself I can see both sides. My mum is in constant pain and gets really fed up, it’s horrible to see her in pain.

This feeling is temporary and it WILL go away. You are LOVED and remember that, I am sure your family do not want to see you in pain either. Good luck, wish you and your family all the happiness