Anxiety out of control

[marie2021]

Hi,
I don't really know where to start but im really struggling. I have a 14 month old daughter who is everything I've ever wanted especially after having a stillbirth at 36 weeks and a mmc before having her. However my anxiety is spiralling out of control. Im obsessed with my daughters sleep and naps, it's driving me crazy. She's in the 2-1 nap transition and it's completely thrown her and me out of everything.
Im constantly worrying she's going to be overtired as she will only nap for 45 mins once a day and wake up so early. I struggle to leave her when I go to work as I worry about how she will be for them and how I am going to function at work when I've been up all night worrying.
Im constantly apologising and trying to rationalise everything to my parents and my husband and they keep telling me I need to get some help. I have never had a diagnosis For anything but was on sertraline for 6 months when my daughter was born and they all feel it helped and that i might need it again.
I feel awful im so exhausted and sometimes wish I had never had my daughter which makes me feel awful but I just can't imagine living life like this for much longer.

You need to see your GP and take any treatment they suggest.
Trust in the medics and your family 💐

I feel you should not hesitate to get help if you feel like wanting one! May God bless you and show you a path ahead. Take care dear.

If you think it helped, go back on the sertraline - or get Gp to try an alternative if it didn’t.

Also get them to refer you for CBT, or pay to speed it up if you can. It’s not deep therapy, it can help challenge irrational thoughts.

Medication is great, but you need to build your tool box too.

I wonder why you are no longer taking Sertraline?
Please go back and speak to your GP. Perhaps you do need to restart the Sertraline. If you and your GP think it will help, don't be in a rush to discontinue it. I think sometimes we stop taking medication such as this because it is working, we feel better so stop taking it when we still need it, IYSWIM.
Hopefully you will soon be on a more even keel, be able to relax and enjoy your baby.

My DH is on antidepressants for life, he was told that when he went on them.