I’m just failing at everything. My marriage ended 2 years ago. I can’t work as 5yo dc2 has ASD and no one else can cope with him. The one person that could help me and was my best friend was my mum but she lost her temper with Dc2 nearly a year ago and injured him. I no longer let her look after the dc (obviously) which she thinks is outrageous and so refuses to speak to me at all. I’ll pass her in the street and she’ll pretend she can’t see me. She’s told everyone that I’m keeping her grandchildren from her but I can’t bear to tell anyone that she attacked my child because I’m terrified he’ll be taken away from me the whole town thinks I’m a monster.
I don’t know what to do. Everything is such a mess and it just keeps getting worse. I just want to run away with my boys and start all over again but my eldest is so happy here and doing so well. I miss my husband too. I thought he’d change when I asked him to work less and help out more and instead he just left. Except he can do whatever he wants. He lives 200 miles away and comes to see the boys for a couple of days now and again then disappears off again.