I don't even know where to start. I feel like I'm on a hair trigger all the time. My husband and I are at each other's throats all the time. He has his own shit going on while I'm looking after baby and toddler and keeping the house together. The baby (7mo) is great but his sleep the last few weeks has gone to shit and it's not helping. I'm just so angry. I was angry at the baby at 4am and shouted at him which didn't help. I felt like I wanted to just dig my fingernails into him. The rage is in my hands. My husband and I fought yesterday, poor communication, I banged my head against the door in rage. Tonight we fought again and I punched the wall, then threw some toys. This is not me. I'm a happy person, except when I'm so angry I can't even think. He laughed at me and I saw red. I need help, what can I do?