NC as I post on here quite regularly
As the title says I'm just really fed up with life.
I don't have a bad life and I know I should be grateful but im just sick of just surviving. Im mid 30's with a child I have 50/50 time. I split with her father a few years ago he was abusive. I've dated but nothing overly serious and then earlier this year I met a guy who was great, we've had a great 8 months together and then just last week I've found out he still lives with his wife and kids (supposedly they are over) but it's absolutely knocked me.
All of my friends are settled in relationships. No one wants to do anything cos it's winter and saving up for Xmas. I love being with my daughter but then when she's at her dads I often don't see anyone bjt elderly grandparents sometimes for 3 days.
I work full time and try to work out. It's hard to have hobbies as my childcare arrangements change weekly and I work really long hours too.
I know I need to learn to be happy on my own but I really struggle. I'm lonely and have no one to talk to about it.
Is there anyone else out there who feels like this? Surely there is more to life. I'd love to book some holidays or weekends away but I feel like I'm beginning friends to go with me.
I find online dating horrendous and after my last experience I can't say it's something I want to rush in to.