I'm struggling with anxiety and my mental health

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I'm really struggling with low thoughts, i'm with my CHMT but I find it really hard to contact them. I'm feeling guilty because I am expecting and I am taking two types of medications, I feel really bad about it. When I go to sleep I have horrible dreams that feel too real and wake me up panicking. When I was younger I spent 3 months in a psych ward which I know isn't a long time but sometimes my dreams revolve around this and I wake up feeling awful again and remembering things I thought I had forgotten. Sorry I just needed to vent. I just don't know who to speak to other than my partner and I don't like putting it on to him all the time. I worry about people dying a lot too. Sorry for the depressing post. I was just wondering if anyone else struggled with these thoughts as I am worried I will not be a good parent.

So sorry you are feeling this way, I’m sure your partner would rather you express your feelings and not keep them to yourself. Speak to your midwife/doctor they may be able to offer some local groups or online forum of people in similar situation. Try listening to some music when your having these thoughts, a walk, read a book, cook etc. I think the fact you are worrying about being a good parent means you probably already are.