Nothing left to give

[Rosebel]

I have nothing left. My head is swimming, I'm constantly stressed, tired and on edge.
My husband works full time and I work part time and we still don't have any money. Jobs dont pay well.
My son has been referred for physio and speech and language. My DD2 has autism and is prone to meltdowns and tantrums. My DD1 is in the middle of her mock exams and I struggle to spend enough time with her and I feel awful.
We're being evicted at the end of the month. Getting nowhere with private rental or the council.
I just have nothing left. Christmas is coming and I don't even know if we'll have a roof over our heads let alone be able to buy the kids anything.
My whole body and mind feel fucked. I just don't know what else can go wrong. Life barely seems worth living anymore.

Hope things get better for you soon. Find somewhere to live and work up from there.

Sending you positive vibes. Tackle one thing at a time, what’s most urgent to deal with? Get the house thing sorted first. Life is so worth living. It will get better, this is just a phase in your life ❤️

Be kind to yourself- you've got a stressful time already and then there's the whole home situation. Do not underestimate how understandably stressful the eviction process is. Are you getting court bailiff evicted or is it your section 21 runs out? Whichever it is, you will get somewhere else. The uncertainty and loss of control over something so fundamental is a horrendous thing to go through, and makes coping with everything else that much harder

Not sure. I think it was a 6a notice perhaps? I know the landlord has to get a court order when our notice runs out which will give us an extra 2 to 6 weeks.
I just want to find somewhere to live. I'd love a bit of good luck for my family, especially the kids. Been through so much but I feel like I run on empty all the time. Have no energy to offer them anymore.
My husband lives in a dream world where he thinks everything will work out fine but I don't have the energy to believe that anymore.

Just cried because I ran out of gravey grannuels. WTF?! I just feel like I can't cope anymore. I have let everyone down.
Why the fuck am I relying on the council to house my children. How can everything have fallen apart so quickly.
I don't even want to be here anymore. My kids would probably be better off without their snapping witch of a mother.

@Rosebel your children love and need you.

Things are hard at the moment but you will succeed

I was in your position a few years ago. No home, made redundant and didn't know what else could go wrong.

I weathered the storm when I just wanted to check out and slowly things improved.

Be kind to yourself x

It is temporary OP - go and see citizen's advice. Sometimes when you're right in the thick of it, it can be hard to see the wood for the trees. Sometimes a third party can help you prioritise actions to tackle the problems. Can you get some support from family members too and it would be worth be worth going to see your GP - is there any way a note from your GP to your landlord could get you some extra time at your current property until maybe after christmas.