PND or just D?

[groundhog2021]

I'm on fluoxetine finally, 6m after giving birth. I've been on it a number times before always at the lowest dose. I've been on it for about two weeks now and I think it might be making me feel worse slightly which I've never had before. It could be a number of things like I'm actually due my period soon so my hormones are playing havoc to or it could be that the depression is actually the worst it's ever been?

I'm starting to worry a little about this. I wonder if it's also post covid troubles. Not that covid really messed up our lives but it wasn't fun for anyone really was it?

I am overjoyed with the baby. I had a wobble with DH immediately prior to giving birth which I don't want to go into on here but he's not abusive at all. But I can't seem to forget about it, maybe that's what it is?

The way I've been describing it is like we're in a pre apocalypse. I honestly can't see how life is going to be happy and care free again after covid. I read way too much nees online so I'm going to have to drop that I know.

This is just depression isn't it... There will be a light again soon?

Are you having a medication review ?
Have you spoken to the GP/HV about how you are still feeling ?
Do you have any feelings of not being happy in your relationship ? Any red flags or things you’re just not quite sure about ?

Yes I need to make an appointment for the review next week. I did have one booked earlier this week but had to cancel it due to it conflicting with another thing I'd already booked and paid for for the baby.

DH is really good. Does the majority of the house work as I have a velcro high needs baby. He takes baby when I need a lie in etc. There are no red flags. I've just not been able to get passed the thing that caused the wobble (porn and phone related, no infidelity).

If you've only been on it for two weeks, it won't have kicked it yet, and the additional anxiety is a well known side effect of starting an AD (even if you've been on it before!) As you said, your hormones are all over the place too.. your body chemistry needs a chance to calm down!

With ADs I suggest waiting (if you can, but if symptoms become unbearable obviously don't suffer in silence) for a least 8 weeks to see if they improve your mood.

The things you're worrying about are reasonable concerns, and it may be that counselling alongside the meds would be the best combination to get you through this difficult time.

Thank you @LindaEllen I'm hoping they will help.

It's tough going through it. I've been trying to keep my head above water for so long for different reasons I'm definitely needing a buoyancy aid at the moment.

I personally wouldn’t put up with porn, but others would and use it themselves, so don’t downplay your feelings about it.
You have your own standards, don’t allow others to tell you you’re wrong.
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@GoodnightGrandma there's nothing that can be done about it tbh and it's not worth leaving for.