Hello everyone,
I want to become a mom, I will be starting IVF but I feel like an imposter, and don't know how to deal with this.
A bit of background:
I am dealing with infertility, among other health issues, I just turned 40 and I am single and have decided to have fertility treatments and try IVF with a sperm donor. Also, I was diagnosed with ADHD very recently and suddenly so many things are making sense.
I was supposed to be starting my ivf cycle this month, but another health problem that was under control created problems again, one thing led to another, and now I am waiting AGAIN for more tests and results.
Weirdly my problem is that I don't know where I am, and what I am. Am I trying to conceive? Am I at this stage? Well no because I haven't had a single IVF med yet. So I am not doing IVF, I WILL be doing it. This means, that I cannot say or feel that I have a problem with my ivf journey, or dealing with trying to conceive anxiety since I am not even there yet!
It helps me being a member of the infertility part of this forum, gives me a sense of belonging, but lately I feel like an imposter.
Sorry for the long post and venting.