cPTSD

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Diagnosed by my GP in October 2019. Still waiting for support/counselling. Not assessed as anxious or depressed, so medication deemed inappropriate.

Underlying issues are abuse in childhood (physical, verbal, emotional) and non-consensual sex. Now I understand that, I simply cannot cope when my boundaries are breached (but on the bright side, at least I have boundaries now).

Minor blip a couple of weeks ago after I decided to give up on my SD. I thought twenty years was long enough for her to grow up and acknowledge my presence. Now I have a problem with the DWP. Held for hours yesterday and then had the phone put down on me. Can't stop crying.

I have been begging to see a GP since last year, but they're still not doing F2F. Have waited five weeks for a telephone appointment.

What to do?

So sorry to hear, that sounds incredibly tough. I would suggest calling back the GP and say you are having a mental health crisis.

GP surgery's view over the last two years is that I don't need to be seen, all I can do is wait for the counselling, which has been delayed by COVID.

So sorry to hear. When is the last time you spoke to them? Have you ever asked about medication? Might help you whilst you wait for the counselling?

You are able to self refer for IAPT, might be worth a shot?

Is there any way you can stretch to private counselling? I’ve been seeing a private counsellor for EMDR therapy over Zoom throughout the pandemic.

Have been advised medication is not appropriate as neither anxious nor depressed.

Referred to IAPT two years ago. They couldn't help so referred me on. I've been assessed, but am waiting now for counselling. I've waited two years now because of COVID, but should finally get in next year.

Private is not an option. I am no longer able to work, so simply don't have the money.