I need someone to talk to me and tell me everything is ok. DH is out this morning and I am struggling with feeling scared. Also, I can't keep asking him to talk me down (although he is heroically patient).
I thought a podcast about being ok might be soothing, has anyone got one they use or know where I could search for one?
I challenged my very abusive Mother a few days ago for the first time ever and she has reacted badly, as expected. I was a very frightened child and grew into a very frightened adult. However, I got lots of therapy and married a fabulously loving man and we have a great family life together with our 3 kids.
But I just need to switch off or learn to live with the feeling of fear rather as I can't pretend this time that my Mother's behaviour is ok. I don't love her, I can't wait for her to die in fact, but I don't feel strong enough to just walk away completely.
My younger sister has been so brave and has recently gone NC which I have supported her with. My older sister took my Dad's role when he died and behaves as an enforcer so she has been on at me. My Mum even got my Auntie to text me.
There is a particular situation which has started this and I don't know if I could talk about it on here as it's a bit dull and everyone has their own stuff to deal with.