Today for the first time I have finally spoken to a GP and admitted I am in a really bad place
I never ever thought I would be that person as I am the strong one , helps everyone , always jolly , coped with everything
Today I had a telephone consultation where I admitted I am not sleeping , binge eating , crying all the time , feeling suicidal , have no joy in my life , cut off all friends , hide true feelings from adult children, can't cope , don't want to cope , not going out unless I absolutely have to , no self care
She wants to take some bloods tomorrow to ensure no physical reason but I doubt there will be
Then talk to me about counselling and probably AD
Not sure if I feel better or worse for doing it and now writing this down
Please be kind