Need some motherly comfort

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Hey guys, I posted on here a few days ago but guess it was a bit too niche! I'm not a mother or a parent but desperate for some guidance.

I have borderline personality disorder and depression. I've taken one overdose a few years back and continue to have suicidal thoughts, daily at the moment or at least a few times a week. I'm finding less and less reasons to be here, not finding any joy or anything to look forward to.

I don't feel like I'm being listened to or supported by the therapy services. I've had so many assessments and been passed on with different types of therapy. Just feel like what's the point in even trying if I'm not being listened to with extremely simple requests regarding appointment times.

Has anyone else been in my shoes? Or perhaps still is? I'm at such a loss and it's so very tiering 😞

So sorry you are feeling this way OP. This isn’t something I have experience of, but just wanted to say that you matter and so do your feelings. Please don’t give up. If you are having suicidal thoughts, I urge you to call Samaritans. They will listen for as long as you need.

And go back to your GP. Explain how bad you are feeling.

Sending you hugs xxx

I'm really sorry you're having such a hard time. I have depression and life is a struggle every day. My mother was abusive and my father was emotionally absent. I get okay with them now but I would never feel able to turn to them for comfort or support. Getting help is indeed frustrating and exhausting. I'm fortunate that I can afford a private counsellor. Sometimes counsellors will charge a concessions rate if you explain that you are limited financially.

There are a couple of online chat services which I have found helpful - My Black Dog and Campaign Against Living Miserably (CALM).

Are you taking medication? I would also recommend exercise - even just walking can help.