Really struggling

[HowMuchWine]

Hi, I'm a regular poster on here. I name change a lot.

I have severe anxiety. It is really really bad and I have reached a point where I actually feel I can't cope anymore and I don't know what to do.

I am useless with taking medication; it's either the side effects or sheer worry that stops me taking them. I am my own worst enemy.
I had cbt which was unhelpful. Then I had a really unpleasant experience with a counsellor and I was then mistakenly discharged from mental health services.

I cannot stop crying. I have two young children and I am constantly am in a heightened state of panic and fear.

I started a new job at the beginning of September and whilst they knew ( as I fessed up I suffered with anxiety when they offered me the job) I somewhat played it down.

I don't feel very well at all and I really really don't know what to do anymore .

I am speaking to my Dr again tomorrow ( we are in regular contact) and I will tell her how I am feeling, but I honestly feel I need to reach out to more people and that I need more of a handhold.

My children's school are also aware of my mental health issues and have been brilliant in the past, and I am wondering if I should speak to them again. Although I don't want to bother them as I know how much they have on their plates already.

I really don't know to do or how to help
myself anymore.

Very sorry to hear this @HowMuchWine, it sounds like you're having a horrible time, and you really shouldn't have to.

What side effects are you experiencing from the medication?

So sorry you are suffering but I totally understand as I am going through the same thing.
I too have had endless counselling and CBT sessions which have had very little impact in my anxiety. It feels as though it’s infiltrated every cell of my body and I am in a constant state of anxiety then I get physical symptoms which perpetuate the anxiety and on it goes.
I would love to try antidepressants but am so scared of side effects too.
I am currently seeing a psychologist, I joined Anxiety U.K. and so am now able to get lower rates through them, I am hoping I will get somewhere with her.
Do you think starting the new job has made things worse?

Thank you so
Much for your reply.

It's not just side effects, it's the worry of any side effects. The side effects are dizziness and feeling nauseous etc. Spaced out and feeling faint .

It's so horrible. I hate my mind.

Also, I listen to The Honest Guys on YouTube, they do lots of relaxation vids and guided meditations, it’s far from a cure but I would recommend listening to of you get a spare for minutes.

Thank you for your replies. Hugs to those struggling too.

I feel really unwell. It's like my thoughts have taken over. Nasty scary and horrible thoughts and fears. I cannot stop the tears rolling down my cheeks. It's absolutely ridiculous.

Be brutally honest with the GP they can’t help if you don’t tell them they everything. Meds side effects last a few days or a week for a lot of people but they wouldn’t give you them if the GP felt you didn’t need them.
Mine give me the space to breath and I don’t care what people say.
If I had a broken leg I’d get help, my head needs help. Good luck

@GoingOutOutNEVER

Be brutally honest with the GP they can’t help if you don’t tell them they everything. Meds side effects last a few days or a week for a lot of people but they wouldn’t give you them if the GP felt you didn’t need them. Mine give me the space to breath and I don’t care what people say. If I had a broken leg I’d get help, my head needs help. Good luck

Thank you 💕

I literally cannot stop crying

Morning,
I have been diagnosed with severe anxiety and depression.
I am currently 17 weeks pregnant and feel guilty and useless that I’m feeling the way I do, I feel like I should be happy and enjoying the pregnancy or at least that’s what everyone’s telling me.

I have bad thoughts over take my head, to the point in sends me into panic and I don’t know how to get out of it. It’s thoughts of bad things happening to me or my partner while he’s working(army) so that’s hard anyway.
I feel so alone even though I have my family and his family to support me but I can’t bring myself to go to them and try explain what’s going on.
Ive been signed off work due to this but work haven’t been supportive what so ever and made some horrible comments about me being pregnant whilst I have mental health issues. There are some days I don’t feel like being around anymore, I know I do as I want to be the best for when baby arrives but I can’t get the thought out my head:/

I just feel like I’m a let down and worthless, I’m stuck in a very deep hole and don’t know how to get out or manage it.

I am in contact with the doctor and midwife and start CBT in 2 weeks but have nothing until that starts. I don’t really want to be put on medication either as I’ve had them before and they’ve never worked for me.

Just starting to give up:(

Hi guys, it's so hard, isn't it? Firstly we all need to try and stop judgemental about the anxious thoughts. Right now, your brains are frantically trying to protect you from a perceived threat. It thinks it's helping you by throwing out every worst case scenario it can get its hands on. We have learnt to live and survive in this way. We have learnt to live in fear. We need to find a way to calm everything down and convince our body and mind that actually we are ok and we can operate day to day. A bit like soothing a child, we need to soothe ourselves back down to a level where we can function. If medication causes such high levels of anxiety then you don't have to take it, it is not for everyone. It is not a panacea. There is no judgement on whether or not you take medication. But you may need to open up to someone who you can be brutally honest with and who can hold the space while you process the high level of fear. Can you access therapy? Imagine a scenario where you learn to challenge or reject the unhelpful thoughts and then also you pass this info on to your own children should they ever face the same anxiety. You would be an absolute rockstar. For now though, it's time to accept what is here, while it is here. And accept that it's ok to not feel ok. It really is. Just 5 mins of reading the news shows what a high anxiety world we live in, so give yourself a break, because in essence your mind is aligning with the way the world operates. But there is another way, your own way.