Not sure why I'm writing this but any pointers would be appreciated.
I've always suffered from health anxiety, always known as the hypochondriac at school etc. Since covid this has intensified, I finally got myself into a good place as I have to go into work, I distance, I don't eat anything that I need to touch with my hands (e.g will only eat wrapped food or something with a fork), I dettol etc.
Last weekend I got married, we had the most perfect day and we 'pretended' that covid didn't exist. The music was very loud all evening which meant a lot of shouting etc.
Circle round to Sunday and I have a bit of a tickley throat. Put it down to the shouting and singing at the top of my voice and the amount of hairspray etc that I had used over the last few days.
At this point I do a covid test and all was negative. The next day I was the same so did another covid and one the day after all of which are negative.
On Wednesday evening I developed a cough. I panicked and on Thursday had a pcr test. This came back last night as negative. And all of yesterday I only coughed once the whole day.
Today I have woken up and coughed a number of times again like I need to clear my throat. And here I am once again doing a LFT which so far is showing negative (have 10 mins left). This is ridiculous and I am living in such fear and have had multiple panic attacks. I can't keep doing this all the time it's making me not be able to sleep or function.
I know a lot of it will be down to being so strict and careful the last 18 months and then to let it all go is a big thing and then the likelihood of me picking up a common cold is high especially as my immune system is down.
I'm so tired of it all and think I need help however not sure where I even start. I personally don't think doing lft every day is healthy from a mental point of view and after a pcr I should have been reassured?
I don't know what to do anymore. Can anyone help or is anyone also going through this?