Deeply traumatised. Long term domestic violence. Was in refuge but not anymore. Wasn't given help to rebuild life. Been left at risk living under his control, back in the prison he made for me. Feel as traumatised by my bad experiences trying to get help as from the abuse. Shattered trust. Took all my strength to try to leave. I trusted some of them and they shattered that trust.
I'm now in bad way, living constantly on edge and also flashbacks and panic attacks.
Have had no counselling or therapy. Refuge referred to some but got turned away as my GP is out of their area. I wanted to go home after refuge like lots of women do so kept same GP.
Asked GP for help but they think better waiting til away from source of trauma. Problem is don't know if will ever be safe. Struggled to get rehousing and abuse support bad where I am so nowhere to turn.
Will anything help when still actively at risk of abuse? Think need trauma therapy but if no good while not safe, is there other options?
Don't know where to turn. Only keeping going because too risky suicide not easy to do. Don't want failed or painful way out.
Anywhere I can ask GP to refer? I'm assumed PTSD but no official diagnosis. Do I need psychiatrist? Scared they're too controlling? Been through and still suffering so much control.