I can't seem to shake this paralysis that's overtaken me. I can't focus on work except in tiny chunks of time so I'm falling behind. The idea of falling behind sends me into mini panic/anxiety attacks. There's also a million other things going on the admin side of life, weird work stuff, house issues, DH's job issues, plus I have a baby under one.
I'm on 20mg of fluoxetine but all I want to do I run away and/or curl up into a ball. I need to snap out of this. I have a million and one things to do. My usual coping mechanisms aren't working, do 1 thing an hour or stupid pomodoro, I don't feel any more tired than usual I just feel done.
I have time away from the baby and support around the house. I'm doing the best "self care" I can, went for a solo walk today but I had to talk myself into going back home! MIL had the baby and she's better with him than me. I wasn't worried, I knew he was well taken care of. DH didn't even notice I was gone.
Honestly I feel a tightness in my chest all the time now. Please tell me this will pass and it's just a moment of time. My family can't stand "negative" talk so I can't complain/whine more than a certain amount a day.