I have always been somewhat socially shit.
I have no problem speaking with men and find I get on with them really well. If i'm honest it's probably because they tend to be a bit flirty and jokey with me and I kind of feel accepted by them straight away?
With women I am absolutely clueless. If they are pretty, I feel intimidated and I make no effort to speak with them as I feel like they will judge me or think I'm boring or not particularly pretty or funny. I suppose I feel a bit inferior. I can make an effort one-one but if there is a group, like a Mums group or at a kids party etc that I attend, I am just absolutely useless. I completely fall apart. I stand there like an absolute lemon and if someone starts talking to me I get so anxious that my mind goes blank and I can barely think of a response. I can see people looking at me like I'm really weird and I can see that they are trying with me but there are so many awkward silences and I always leave feeling like a sack of shit. I run out of things to ask and I just repeat the same questions. I feel like people don't really ask me much about myself so I don't really have much to input in to the convo. It is visible how uncomfortable I look. I don't know where to put my arms, how to stand. I go all stiff and just look like a prat.
Anyway, any help on how to stop being such a social fart would be welcome.