Hi everyone,
This is my first post on Mumsnet so sorry if it's in the wrong place or not quite right in some way. Essentially I am currently at a bit of a breaking point with anxiety symptoms. I have always had anxiety under the surface and honestly it's taken me until now ( I'm 26 ) to realise it isn't just me being empathetic or quirky and actually it is hindering my quality of life. I used to suffer from migraines and thought it was muscoskeletal but something seemed to just tip me this past year and I went from working a very busy job and feeling like I was on a roll to doing a course for a couple of months to progress my career at home. I started off okay but by week 3 or 4 something inside me just changed and it was like the sudden slow pace made everything I've been through for a number of years come to the surface. The bereavement of a younger family member who committed suicide hit me like a ton of bricks and I started weeping uncontrollably one day. I thought it was just a funny five minutes and pulled myself together ready to get back to work in my fast paced environment again and for the first couple of weeks I was doing good. I met my new boyfriend and we were having a lovely time then that anxiety resurfaced again but this time as a complete and utter inability to swallow solid food around any person other than myself. I ignored it for a while and swung back and forwards between good days and bad days but as it gained momentum my throat has become tighter and more restrictive. I've now seen 3 hypnotherapists, used a swallowing device, had my bloods taken and saw my GP and I am beyond stuck with it all. My boyfriend is truly amazing as is my manager who has adjusted my shifts to help me to cope with how little I'm eating which I am eternally grateful for but this cannot go on, I have come to the conclusion I will probably need to start taking medication but I have no idea where I start. Before now I'd never even met my GP and I've never been on any medication at all. I have been cleared medically and my throat is in working order, but I just need something to take the edge off. I actually feel great mood wise, my relationship is wonderful and life is in a good place but my mind is processing old things I put on the back burner I suppose. Can anyone make any recommendations or possibly let me know what I can expect from anxiety medication? I cannot talk to my family really as they're lovely but explaining that I'm finally feeling the bereavement will be hard for them to hear. I really feel like I have nobody to ask so any sort of tips of advice would be appreciated. Thank you