i really can't go on

[BennyBean]

i don't think i can carry on any longer, my anxiety has got really bad , i am on medication for the past 2 weeks but, haven't noticed any improvement this is all new to me and has been gradually coming on over the summer i know the root of the problem is where i live it has really changed in our area over the past 2 years i regret selling our previous home and long to go back but i know we can't i hate the house we live in hate the outside area, due to covid we have more passing traffic, food delivery vans other delivery vans who go at break neck speed and for some reason more cars , more barking dogs we have decided in the coming months to put our house on the market but worry within our budget we won't be able to find anything, the market near us isn't very good i don't feel like i want to carry on with this existence anymore iv'e lived my life have grown up children with families just wanted to write it all down get it off my chest see if it made me feel any better, it hasn't, thank you for reading

Bennybean. I’m so sorry to hear you feel like this. Please seek some help from someone. Do you have anyone close you can call? Would you consider calling the Samaritans or another charity to have a person to talk these things through with? Please reach out to someone who can help you through this period.

Also, anxiety meds can take a few weeks to take effect and they may be not the right type for you. Can you call your Gp to discuss the medication?

Please take care of yourself x

Hi pipianbelle thank you for taking time to write i have a loving husband but he knows how i feel but not that i can't go on he already is upset to see me like this and it would put more pressure on him as he is in he's seventies i have family but don't want to worry them the gp i ringing me in a weeks time i don't want to tell her how i am feeling because i don't want to go to hospital so i am trying to get through it on my own that's why i wrote on here for support

@bennybean a week is such a long time for you to carry this in your own. Don’t feel like you can’t phone your Gp before then. They would definitely want you too if they knew how badly you feel.

If you don’t want to discuss this further with family or friends then please reach out to a charity like Mind or the Samaritans. If you have a mobile phone maybe you could go somewhere private and call them. It is anonymous and you can just get things off your chest. I have done this in the past and found it really helpful in the short term xxx

Or just look at this website if you feel you can’t phone xxx

www.samaritans.org/

Press the blue writing www.samaritans.org/

Hi thank you i'll have a good think about what you have said thank you so much it helps xx

@BennyBean

Hi pipianbelle thank you for taking time to write i have a loving husband but he knows how i feel but not that i can't go on he already is upset to see me like this and it would put more pressure on him as he is in he's seventies i have family but don't want to worry them the gp i ringing me in a weeks time i don't want to tell her how i am feeling because i don't want to go to hospital so i am trying to get through it on my own that's why i wrote on here for support

Why do you think you may need hospital?