I don't know if this is the right board for this. I feel so ridiculous. For many many months now I've had an alternate life in my head (I think it's called maladaptive daydreaming?) - literally all day and if I wake in the night I'll spend time in my daydream. In real life I'm married, a SAHM and have 2 young children (2 and 4) so although I'm always on the go I do actually spend a lot of time daydreaming while I'm doing things like building train track, supervising colouring, making meals etc. My daydream involves me be a younger, slimmer, cooler, basically much better version of myself, single, just meeting a guy and starting a relationship. The guy is a minor celebrity from a reality show - I have no idea why, I haven't actually watched the show for years! Anyway I made the mistake of actually looking him up the other day and of course he's married and has a family but honestly it has floored me and I feel so upset. Why on earth do I feel like this??? Well I think I know why - I'm just a bit unhappy at the moment. Drained by 2 young children, feel like my brain is melting away and I'd like a job but can't find one that fits around the school run, things not great with dh because he's feeling drained too. I love my fantasy life and the escapism it provides but now it's making me sad - and I'm sad it's making me sad because it was my happy place!
Anyone else ever had this? I assume it gets better??