One year post birth and my PND is no better. I’m on meds, they’re making me worse. My husband left, I went back to work but was immediately signed off as I couldn’t cope.
Im waiting for a call back off the psychiatrist with what he advises but I just can’t go on.
I’ve come out to clear my head and I’m just sat in a field crying. I don’t want to die because of life, I want to die because I can’t cope with this mental pain anymore.
I have friends, my best friend is fantastic but I don’t want to ring her because I feel like a burden even though she says repeatedly that im not. But she has a partner at home and I don’t want to drag her out. They’re going away Friday I can’t ruin it.
I have someone picking my daughter up from nursery, so I don’t need to rush back for her.
Part of me wants to call a&e but the other doesn’t because when I went in from an overdose in July I was sent home as they said o was of sound mind to seek help. I want help but also want it to end.
What do I do? I am so muddled