Don’t know if I have posted in the right place. I want to know what is going on with me and what I can do to help myself. My life is boring. It’s hard work. I have a just turned 5 year old and a 6 month old. These school holidays have been awful. My 5 year old is just such hard work. He will be back at school soon, but I’m dreading the school runs as I suffer with anxiety. Every day is the same and I feel like I’m going insane most days. I love my partner but I wouldn’t say I’m necessarily happy with him at the moment. He works full time. Plays football on Wednesdays and sundays. Then golf on Saturdays. I feel alone. I feel like everyone else has a better life than me and I’m just useless. I sit there and just cry most days even though I don’t know what for. I feel very lonely even though I’m not. I look around where I live and just think ‘there has to be more to life than this’ I understand I may sound crazy, and I know deep down I am very lucky, there are a lot of people worse off than me. I don’t want to feel like this anymore but I just can’t help it.