What is wrong with me? I am useless.

[clarkkentsglasses]

I don't know how much more of my own shit I can take.

The dark, dark cloud over me today is so heavy I am in bed, crying.

Saw 2 old friends last week and it triggered an enormous feeling, I was bullied at school and all this has come flooding back.

I have no motivation anymore, my job just grinds me down, I have no "happy moments". I dislike life.

Anxiety is a constant fucking daily battle, ranging from the mildest which is palpitations to the extremes today which is chest pain like nothing else and my stomach feels like it might explode.

I am already in therapy, maybe I'm not being honest enough which is why it's "not fucking working"

I just want to feel stable and not this incessant vulnerability.

It will pass won't it? Tomorrow is another day

@clarkkentsglasses I didn't want to read and go. The trauma of bullying can cut deep. You are not the same person and you are not there, you are in your own bed and you are safe. These feelings you are feeling now will pass. Hold on. Tomorrow is indeed another day.

Have you been to see your GP? They can prescribe you something for your anxiety, sometimes it takes the edge off enough for you to properly be able to engage with your therapy.

I struggle with anxiety myself and I know how debilitating and all consuming it is so for you, you are doing amazing just getting through the hours.

Pop to the GP and be kind to yourself x

I came on here as I'm having a fucking awful afternoon with black clouds and anxiety as well. No help but solidarity that tomorrow is another day.. I feel so hopeless today.

Thank you for responding

The anxiety takes over and I just can't address any of it, so good advice from PP there. Thanks.

Tomorrow we start again. another day, another chance

Good night

Therapy opens up old and painful wounds and gives them air. It sounds to me like it is fucking working. It's ok to ask for additional support when it feels unbearable though. Take care.