The worst thing ever. I've not trusted anyone my whole life. Its part of complex trauma. Haven't trusted anyone or asked for help.
Finally decided it was time to change and asked for help via NHS where to cut a long story short was re-traumatised and then dumped to to staff shortages.
Had a chat with the lead NHS psychaitrist the other day and she said they shouldn't have done any of the things they did prior to ending my treatment as it's caused further severe trauma and trust issues.
Luckily for me I've had a significant pay rise at work and can now afford private treatment so I'm going to do that.
I'm disgusted though, I work in the NHS and do my absolute best to treat people with dignity and give them the treatment they deserve.
You just can't mess about with peoples mental health like this - it can and does cause suicides.