DID

[JellynoseMonkeyfish]

Anyone else? I am really struggling at the moment.

Like stupidly struggling.

Hey OP. Yes, a bit. Do you want to say more about how you’re finding things at the moment?

I’m so sorry, I posted before I realised what DID stood for. I don’t want to pretend I have experiences / knowledge that I don’t.

I am really struggling with amnesia, and decision making (specifically regarding boundaries with communicating with other people), and body memories which are leaving me unable to breath.

Just feeling completely broken by it all at the moment and don't have anyone to talk to IRL as the two people who know are both very occupied with their own lives right now (rightly so, new job and a new baby)

@Letthelightoflove oh that's OK - sorry I didn't want to type out the acronym in full as sometimes weirdos have jumped on threads in the past when it is spelt out.

That’s understandable, I’m sorry that you get attention from the weirdos!

Do you have any professional support that you can access?
A new job can be intense but it doesn’t necessarily take all of a person’s time and energy - are you able to reach out to that person at all?

Hi
I don't have DID but there are some really useful resources by Carolyn Spring. Good podcasts/ articles that talk about this.

Reading something relatable might help perhaps.

I will find a link

Here

www.carolynspring.com/blog/

@6fingerkitkat thank you, I just signed up for the free trauma guide.

@Letthelightoflove I am going to try over the weekend; I know new job person is out for leaving drinks tonight.

Thank you for the replies.

So sorry things are so difficult for you OP.
You will know all of this already but the dissociation is a trauma response, so work with your basic feelings and senses. Mindfulness, grounding just trying to get yourself into the moment can be helpful.

Maybe some safe space imagery? Getselfhelp.co.uk has some good bits, and there is an excellent book, I think it’s called The DBT workbook that is well worth a look.
Good luck, it’s awful feeling so unwell x