Bit of background..
I've always been a laid back easy going person until the birth of my first son 6 years ago, as the weeks went by after he was born I began suffering with anxiety. I was always on edge, didn't like going out with him as I was afraid something bad was going to happen, regularly suffering intrusive thoughts and some days I just didn't want to do anything, I never felt happy. After 21 months I finally felt brave enough to seek help from my gp who felt I had suffered from pnd which later developed into anxiety. She prescribed medication and offered cbt. After a few months I felt almost myself again and started to enjoy my life. Fast forward a few years, I've had another baby (20 month old) and I feel like I'm back at square one, though this time I'm not anxious just really really low, every day almost. I don't feel like anything makes me happy, I don't want to even get out of bed some days and face the daily tasks of cleaning, cooking, tidying and I'm ashamed to say play with the kids. I love them to pieces, there my world but I just feel like I'm the nanny/cleaner and I get no pleasure from my life at the moment. What's wrong with me, is this feeling normal? Or do I need to go back to the gp?