This is really outing so I hope no one recognises me as I am really struggling.
I am on day 2/3 of covid. I am 34 weeks pregnant and I feel like shit, like I have flu and a really tight chest.
Coupled with being heavily pregnant and massively anaemic I am now bed ridden as this has floored me. I've spoken to my midwife and they have said ride it out but stay in touch and call them any time if I am worried/symptoms get worse.
DP has been dropping over food but has chosen to stay at his own flat because he doesn't want to catch it/miss work- we think he already had it and he is double jabbed.
Meanwhile the washing/dishes and general state of the house are going to shit and whilst I know the chores aren't going anywhere I am still going to have to tackle them when the symptoms start to subside - I was knackered before this so god only knows how I will catch up with it all. I have a dd also has SEN/ADD and I have already been isolating with her for over a week because we came into contact with someone at a BBQ who had covid. Due to her routine going out of the window and being stuck indoors her behaviour has been really difficult to manage. She wont help in any way and is being very difficult about everything/mouthy/rude and a nightmare to deal with. She won't eat which makes her behaviour worse and is expecting me to cook when she could easily pop a pizza in the oven or make something easy for herself. She wants takeaways every night and I can't afford it. She is going to sleep super late and knows I can't fight with her so enjoying the power. I know that a lot of this behaviour is down to her ADD but I am feeling so unwell that even getting up to go to the loo makes me feel like I am going to pass out.
I really feel like DP should be here taking care of things. He's been out having fun all weekend whilst I have been stuck in bed/trying to stay afloat with stuff in the house and cope with DD. He keeps telling me how worried he is about me but it doesn't feel like that when he has chosen to stay away and I am left coping with everything alone. I feel like I am not even a priority right now. I put everyone in our family first and would do anything for them, right now it doesn't feel like that is being reciprocated at all.
I know if I pick this up with DP he will say "are you joking" and think he has been a night in shining armour by dropping stuff over and whilst that has been really helpful, I need more help than that. I think in the circumstances his work would understand and failing that he could easily afford to lose a bit of money for a week off.
I totally get there would be some risk to him but he is very low risk and how can you leave someone heavily pregnant to cope with all of that on their own? If we were living together then he wouldn't have any choice but to get on with it and it has really made me question a lot of things. I am not allowed out until the middle of next week and I very much doubt DP will step foot in the house before then so I will have to continue to manage DD and everything alone for over a week. I just feel completely wiped out and my mental health has taken a nose dive, hence posting in here rather than the covid section or AIBU where people will be nasty. Maybe I am expecting too much but if the shoe was on the other foot it wouldn't even be a question, I would be there looking after him.