Hi fellow Mumsnetters,
Basically, I feel as though I need to change my life, or even my family’s life. There are different factors involved and I wonder if just midlife crisis!
I am married with one child who has Special Needs - milder but also very debilitating in what we can do as a family, in daily life. Our Child struggles going out and about.
I adore my Husband and we have been together a very long time, since I was a teenager (late teens). Had a year or so of being single and going to clubs, girlie holidays etc prior. We are so close, particularly as we have our child and everything that goes along with DC - no one else, even if they try, can fully understand our emotions and worries around DC and the practicalities of day to day life. We are there to support each other through the regular, tough times, of which there have been many these past couple of years, including bereavement.
However, we have been in a sexless marriage for years now. I always had a higher sex drive from the very beginning and a little more experience (don’t get me wrong, far from slept around) - but DH was very inexperienced. Anyway, I feel terrible but I have really found myself looking at other men when out and about. My hormones are through the roof!
I don’t know what I’m saying really, but I’ve been very down, have a lot on my plate at the moment with one thing or another, on anti-depressants for a few years now.
I feel as though I need more in my life. I’m quite shy with new people, don’t have hardly any spare time and am always exhausted.
I feel selfish. I feel as though I want to feel happiness again, a rush of love, excitement or just make the most of life, whilst being there for my family and giving them the best life I can. We are all so stuck in a rut, exhausted.
Am I being selfish and unreasonable?