Childhood issues and therapy - hand hold please!!

[proseccodreamz]

I've recently started therapy after a mental health crisis. I have a child with a disability and originally believed all my issues were related to him. However, after a couple of sessions done fairly significant neglect and abuse issues from my childhood have arisen.
I'm really struggling with the process to be honest. I've spent years repressing all this and now it feels like I've opened a can of worms. Digging into all of this and then having to function as a mother is so hard.
I'm not sure what I'm asking really, just maybe support? My therapist is fantastic but I just want to feel better . I know it's a process but it just seems so difficult and im struggling to see how talking about everything will make me feel anything but worse.
Sorry this is a complete ramble and I'm crying as I type! Any hand hold or support please!!

Handhold. I'm going through the same thing after I lost the plot about 18 mths ago.
I thought everything related to my son's death. But like you, once the psychologist started asking questions, all this terrible childhood abuse I'd kept hidden just exploded.
My psychologist is wonderful, but god, it's so traumatic. I want a magic cure but of course it's a long process and I often want to scream, it hurts so much and I want to be better. Now!
She tries to give me hope and encouragement that this is a process that will eventually make me much happier and more stable (I have bipolar too).
But sometimes it's terrible, so I really do sympathise with you and wish you all the very best.
I hope you find strength and courage and that it'll lead you to peace and calm eventually
Hang in there.