Anyone else feel like they're living in a bad dream?

[SadRainbow]

I have severe depression and lately my world feels really small and ugly. I'm not even really comfortable in my home any more. I go for walks and I feel like I'm in a barren wasteland, or a strange, poor quality simulation that doesn't have any of the richness and beauty of the real world. But it actually is the real world and that feels devastating. I feel like I want to wake up from this nightmare but I can't. I used to be able to see the good things but now it's all ugly and uncomfortable.

I'm seeing a counsellor and I've just switched antidepressants so I suppose there is hope of feeling better but I'm not feeling it.

Hi I can relate to what your going through I have always had anxiety but since January I have developed health anxiety and I feel depressed. I too have started seeing a therapist I’m on week 4 and some days are better days although most aren’t. I try to describe it to people like that you could look out the window and the sky is a dark grey but to them the sky is blue and no matter how many times so many people say that the sky is blue for you it’s dark grey depression is an awful thing it is a living nightmare everyday is a struggle I hope you can find light at the end of this awful time

Thanks for your reply Motherto. I'm sorry you're struggling too. Yes, it's like having a horribly coloured lens infront of your eyes all the time. I hope things get better for you soon.

I can also very much relate to your experience and even posted my own thread here. With depression it can be hard to find joy in much. I always describe it as all of the colour going out of life. Do you have any hobbies you enjoy doing or any favourite things?

Vanillacupcakeyummy, there used to be lots of things I enjoyed, even when I was depressed in the past but currently I can't enjoy anything - I can't even get lost in a good book or enjoy a film. The days really drag by...

@SadRainbow I totally understand and very much feel the same way. I also find there is a lack of support with depression sometimes. In my experience people tell me to be positive and that can be easier said than done sometimes when it's difficult to find the motivation to want to do much

Yes I've been feeling this way recently. You're not alone.

I'm sorry to hear that Maria53. I hope your world becomes brighter soon.