As the title suggests we are currently self isolating as the 2 teens still at home have covid. I am just not coping and thought maybe sharing might help me process my thoughts.
So 18 year old, dh and myself are now on day 8 but poor 14 year old is back to day 2 after a positive result coming through yesterday. Dh and I are both fully vaccinated, symptom free and pcr negative but I just can't let go of the anxiety that I will catch it at the final moment. I know chances are i wouldn't be particularly ill but the thought of further isolation is overwhelming. I feel sick and panicky a lot of the time, not sleeping well and having difficulty concentrating on anything. I don't feel like my home is a safe place anymore yet i am trapped there. This sounds so melodramatic written down but it's how I feel. I am wiping surfaces every few hours and the teens are staying in their rooms as far as possible but it all feels so crazy, like i am being made to fear something I ordinarily would have no reason to fear. Normally if one of them was ill i would hug them oe sit on their bed and try to cheer them up so it feels totally unnatural to stay away from them. I am scared of my own family, it's bonkers. I feel like I have let my colleagues down in the busy summer term and so desperate to get back before we break up for the summer. The media this past week has really not helped so trying to avoid it now but that is easier said than done. Normally life is full on and busy and after 7/8 days of pottering about i just can't distract myself from my own thoughts anymore. I wish I could just fall asleep and wake up in 3 days time. So fed up now.