So we lost my brother very suddenly and tragically in 2019 and my nanna also very suddenly 6 weeks later. I was half way through my pregnancy when this happened. They where such huge members of our family and it’s left a huge hole in all of our hearts.
My family is slowly but surely falling apart. My mam is everyone’s rock but she’s really struggling. My dads been suffering with depression for many years and this has made it so much worse. My brother is in such a deep dark place and on Monday he had planned and lucky back out at the last moment to take his own life.
I’m absolutely terrified. I’m not okay. I don’t know what to do or how to cope with it all. I can’t loose my only remaining brother. I need my big brother. We’ve got a lot of support and my family is absolutely incredible. Crisis team are involved and are great.
I don’t even know why I’m writing this I just need to get it all out.