Does anyone else feel like this and what do you do?

[SunshineCake]

I have had years of on and off depression. Currently in an on position. Even when I'm not feeling depressed I have times where I feel happy or happy-ish and then I immediately stop the feeling as it scares me.

I feel like crap. Hopeless. Sad. Scared. Going to the GP is 100% not happening. I want to work this out at home.

Also, slightly flippantly because that's what I do, does anyone know where my CBT for Dummies book is? Just had a look and can't find it, isn't where I thought it was, due to everyone else in the house just dumping their stuff and not respecting my housework. Feel fed up.

Try this course;

www.udemy.com/course/online_course_for_help_with_depression/

But don't pay the full price! Click on the link over a couple of days and it magically discounts to less than £20.

Thank you.