I'm tired of life

[december2020]

First off, I'm not suicidal or anything like that. Maybe it's more of a loss of my 'mojo'.

On paper, theoretically, my life is good. We've managed to get on the property ladder, have a wonderful DS born last year, cute dog, not on astronomical salaries but currently we don't have money worries and can afford to go on holidays. I've just been offered an amazing new job after maternity that I'm really looking forward to doing yet I don't feel content or fulfilled. I'm just tired of my life (or I guess a little bored of it).

The thing is: I'm not sure why.
Is it that I'm living the life I was 'supposed to' live (go to uni, get a good job, get a house) rather than the one I had hoped to? Or is it just that I haven't found how to be content with what I have? And just enjoy my everyday?
Perhaps there are change (bigger and smaller) that I want to do but I never get around to it so constantly feeling like I'm in a state of inertia.

I don't feel depressed or anything like that, just somehow stagnated.

Has anyone felt this way?
How do you find that contentedness?

Maybe you need to ask yourself these questions as we can't possibly know. Answer as if someone you just met was getting to know you and asked.

This is your life. You get to live it once. Don't live it for anyone else. As long as your dc are safe, cared for and loved then you are allowed to want and have things for yourself.

@SunshineCake thank you for your kind words, really appreciated. Maybe I'm just in a bit of a confused state of mind. As you say, of course no one else can answer those questions and I'll need to try find those answers for myself, but I was hoping maybe there was experiences on how people have found that contentedness for themselves (appreciate it won't be the same answer for everyone).
At the moment it feels difficult to get to any clarity on what to do and making sure it's not just a knee jerk reaction.

I think it is a recurring phase of life - or it has been for me. In my case, my 'what's the point of it all overwhelming feeling has always been when things are plodding along quite nicely.
Give me a disaster or major challenge and I am much more content. Bizarre, but I assume it has to do with the chemicals released, the adrenaline rush.
I wish I could be truly happy when everything is great. Truth is I think I am probably bored.
Don't know if it's the same for you OP, in my case, I started wild swimming, met a grand group of people and have some better focus to my day, rather than the usual slog. It really has helped!
Good luck!

Mostly I feel okay but there is always just that not quite there a hit my life and a sadness that I'll never have what I want and what I have worked very very hard to get into a position of being ready for it and knowing I deserve it.

I think Ive been happiest when Im ekeing out every bit of enjoyment from the day. It was sunny this evening and someone spontaneously invited me for a walk,it was dead (football) and I didn't get home until dusk, it felt like a mini adventure.