Anxiety out the blue

[lottieleo]

I'm just here to rant really.
I have suffered with severe anxiety and ocd
In my early teen to early 20s using fluoxetine on and off
When I had my daughter 3years ago they recommended I go back incase of anxiety ect which I did for two ish years.(I wasnt experiencing any issue I think I just stayed on it so long out of the fear of "what if" something happens and my ocd comes back)
I have stopped taking fluoxetine around 9-11months ago, if not longer
as I wasn't taking it consistently and stopped my birth control 4months. The last two months I have noticed some mild anxiety nothing I couldn't live with. However I've start my period this week and I've had the worst anxiety I've had in over 5 years. It was a struggle to leave my house this morning and I burst in to tears the minute I arrived at work, I can feel all my old thoughts and behaviours coming flooding back with my anxiety.

There's been no change in my life no added stress ect
It's just massively frustrating for it to all randomly start again and I find it so upsetting to feel ill be reliant on medication for the rest of my life.

Just for reference i have also had numerous years of therapy, cbt ect they helped greatly with my ocd but not my anxiety.

I had exactly this, you're not alone. It was crippling for me as I'd never had anxiety /panic attacks before only the depression. It was one of the worst times of my life.
It's shit relying on meds but you just have to... It's just your biological chemistry, nothing you're in control of, just remember that Xx

Fecking hormones!

Thanks for the response
I constantly go back and forth over medication.
My workplace ethos is very anti psychiatry and medication.
The constant messages of how we don't need medication, thst we deal with our trauma has me often feeling like a failure.

I have anxiety and depression. I take medication. It’s not because of trauma. Would they say the same to an asthmatic or diabetic? Ridiculous! My brain chemistry is awry. I take the pills to sort that out.
Good luck OP.

@lottieleo you work in a weird place then! With very stupid people and closed minds. Don't tell them you're on medication.

Your workplace ethos is misguided.
Mental health issues sometimes need medication, it's not a reflection on you failing to deal with something. It's chemistry.