I’ve been struggling with suicidal thoughts the last couple of days, again. When anything makes me sad I can’t get the thoughts of suicide out of my head. It’s like I’m actually making a decision whether to do it or not. The thing is before I slip into this I feel happy with my life. It just takes one thing, usually feeling lonely, that switches something in my head and I’m literally weighing up whether to live or die. It’s so exhausting when you think things are going great and then your head does this.