EMDR

[BlumminKids]

Can anyone give me any positive feelings about this please?
I have quite a colourful past which haunts me. I'll keep it brief
Meet ex DH Had ICSI/IVF x4 for DD 20
Had 2 lots of egg donation altruistically.
Ex Dh accused of child abuse towards his cousin many years before(this was the day we came out of hospital with new DD)

DD was checked by social workers for 12 weeks to make sure that she wasn't being abused. He denied abusing cousin and I believed him.
Ex DH was sexually abusive. Drugged me.
Found very explicit pictures of children being abused on our family computer. In 'favourites' although it just 'popped up'..Police came and took computer out of the house. I moved to my parents with DD in the short term until he moved out.
We both had the same log on back in those days. They couldn't prove if it was me or him, although my neighbours told me later that he came home every day that I was at work and shut the curtains for half an hour and then went back to work. He never told me this.
Presumably he was on the PC and didn't want anyone to see what he was doing. I am pretty crap at all technical things IT.
We divorced. He remarried. A woman with 4 kids, one of them a DD
He allegedly abused her too. Gave her 'vitamins' when her mum was out, to relax her. Nothing that could be proved. His word against hers
My DD wants nothing to do with him and he no longer contacts
From then I met a much more stable man and had 2 DS who are now 15 and 16. He was financially abusive to me. Am sure he has Aspergers. He has just told me that he will no longer be supporting the boys because he's got no work from July!!(despite 100's of 1000's in savings!)
I then moved on after 5 years to another relationship with what turned out to be a very very angry man.
I'm sad to think that at 53 I might be on my own for the rest of my life, but feel like I need to move on from all these ghosts.
Any recommendations?
Friends have recommended counselling
Others have recommended EMDR
** that was brief! Sorry x

I'd do a mixture of things OP. I would do the Freedom Programme so that you learn how to spot abusive men.

EMDR tends to be used or post traumatic stress disorder after a traumatic incident eg a car crash. I believe it's meant to be less successful for ongoing abuse. However, you can read up about that here: www.nhs.uk/mental-health/conditions/post-traumatic-stress-disorder-ptsd/treatment/

You've obviously been through a lot of trauma due to successive abusive relationships. You might find counselling helpful, in particular trauma based counselling. Try BACP for therapists.

You might also find info on Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder helpful. You can find more info about that here: www.nhs.uk/mental-health/conditions/post-traumatic-stress-disorder-ptsd/complex/

You might find Peter Walker's Book helpful if you feel that resonates: www.pete-walker.com/index.htm

You need to be properly assessed by a psychologist/psychiatrist to work out the best form of treatment for you. Emdr helped me massively with trauma but it wouldn't have been nearly as effective if i hadn't had extensive cbt first.