Inspired by a thread I read earlier about staying in bed.
I realise for the past year/year and half, I have changed so much. I am fearful, have social anxiety, lazy, unmotivated. I feel like I’ve literally aged 20 years.
I have worked from home for the last 15 months and am gradually finding it harder and harder to motivate myself.
I seem to find negativity in everything & I see the worst in people.
I love being at home, just pottering around or in bed. I have 0 get up and go. I am cancelling my plans all the time because I simply do not have the energy. I feel so bad for my DP, I feel like I drag him down. I’ve totally lost my spark.
I eat relatively well but then binge on biscuits. I sometimes don’t get dressed all day or leave the house for days on end. Everything feels like effort. I can’t be bothered to exercise anymore. I got really good at running in the first lockdown 
I don’t like walking anymore, I’ve done so much of it.
I always seem to feel ill. I suffer with migraines generally but I also always have something else...sore throat, I had strained my chest the other day (goodness knows how!), bad back etc.
I generally am very very lucky. I have my dream job I never ever thought I would land, lovely flat in London, DP is great (albeit his job has totally taken over his life which can cause tensions). I normally love clothes/fashion & traveling - both of which I have lost interest in totally (travel for obvious reasons!).
Sorry this is all a bit of a jumbled waffle. I know I probably need to go to the doctor at some point but I think I am in a bit of denial. I feel like someone needs to give me a shake!
Does anyone have any words if wisdom? I can’t work out if this is just who I am now, lockdown, depression or a bit of a combo?