I am very tearful today & I'm not really sure why.

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I haven't been like this for a while & I don't know why I'm feeling quite so down.

My DS was very sick last night just 2 weeks after getting over his last bug, so I have been at home with him all day.
Don't know if it is because I've been stuck in the house or because I am worried about him, but all children get vomit bugs & I've dealt with many before.

Keep thinking about my Nan today & getting upset (she died back in July), and much as I keep thinking about her, I got more upset than usual.

Ex H took the boys around an hour ago, and I am feeling horribly low & lonely. I have been on my own with boys for 6 months now, and have been coping just fine, so don't know why today should be any different.

I am feeling insecure about everything, but don't know why, and I don't know why I am having such a tearful day. This is quite out of character for me.

Hi, I asked about you on another thread, hope I didn't set you off.

I think reality may be kicking in for you and it is still early days. You may remember I lost my nan in June 2005 and even now, I can't believe she has gone.

I have days when I am feeling so low and I can't work out why.

Sorry I can't give you any real advice but wanted to let you know I was thinking of you.

No you didn't set me off, NAB, infact I am not sure I have seen the thread yet. Thank you for thinking of me.

I think reality is kicking in now. As her death was so sudden & such a shock, I think it really took a while to properly sink in that she was really gone, but now it really is, and I miss her bad.

I have probably had too much time to think today, but I am getting tearful at the drop of a hat.

It was expected that my Nan would die but I didn't really believe it, or at least not that it would happen when it did.

It takes time.

She was all I had.

It's hard isn't it?

I saw a video of DS1's 6th birthday yesterday, and nan was there smiling, which upset me.

I threw out a toy a few weeks ago that my Nan bouight for Ds1's 1st birthday. It has been broken for ages but I couldn't bring myself to get rid of it.

I am the same. I have an empty jelly baby packet from her house and a tissue I took from one of her coat pockets. I can't throw either of them away.

From hatricks' thread

How are you PC and has the cat settled in now?

Ah, bless you.

The cat has settled ok, but still unsure around the children, and she hisses a lot.
She is still called Puss Puss (Nan called her this) as the boys don't think we should change her name. Was quite embarrassing when the vet called her name out!

Can't be worse than what my cat is called.

Which is....

Mushroom

Lol! That's quite sweet!

have had a bath now & am feeling a little better btw. Think I may be very tired too, which doesn't help with the emotions, does it?

Definitely not. I find that I would cry if I wasn't so tired at times. Don't even have the energy for that!

Hope you have a better day today.

thanks, NAB.
DS is much better today, so he has been back to school & I have been back at work, which has kept my mind busy.
I also got a better nights sleep last night, so have not been all tearful today, thankfully.